30” x 24” oil on canvas. 2023
This is a redo of a concept I painted during lockdown in 2020 and I’m still not 100% satisfied with it. Maybe I’ll take a third stab at it. This idea just continues to haunt me like a bad omen. I thought to myself that once I perfectly execute on the concept I can finally get up and walk away from the shadows I’ve locked myself in with.
10” x 10” watercolor on paper. 2023
24” x 24” oil on canvas. 2023
“The hopeless dream of being - not seeming, but being. At every waking moment, alert. The gulf between what you are with others and what you are alone. The vertigo and the constant hunger to be exposed, to be seen through, perhaps even wiped out. Every inflection and every gesture a lie, every smile a grimace. Su!cide? No, too vulgar. But you can refuse to move, refuse to talk, so that you don't have to lie. You can shut yourself in. Then you needn't play any parts or make wrong gestures. Or so you thought.” - Ingmar Bergman, Persona (1966)
24” x 24” oil on canvas. 2022
“What is inferior or even worthless belongs to me as my shadow and gives me substance and mass. How can I be substantial if I fail to cast a shadow? I must have a dark side if I am to be whole.” - Carl Jung, Modern Man in Search of a Soul
11” x 15” watercolor, gouache on watercolor paper. 2022
digital edit of previous painting. 2022
digital illustration. 2022
Somehow that “thing”, that feeling, still sneaks up on you just when you thought you already made it out of the tunnel of existential unease. The train relentlessly heads towards an unknown destination.
22” x 28” oil on canvas. 2022
digital. 2021
30” x 40” acrylic on canvas. 2021
A contemplation of the unknown futures we are all progressing towards, reckoning with an unknown omnipotent entity that is pulling all the invisible puppet strings. It is staring into the abyss with trepidation but also awe. And it stares back at you with a gaze you cannot understand.
20” x 20” acrylic on canvas. 2021
20” x 20” acrylic on canvas. 2021
8” x 10” acrylic on canvas panel. 2020
digital illustration. 2020
Briefly sandwiched between two eternities
digital illustration. 2021
“Now I have neither happiness or unhappiness. Everything Passes” - Osamu Dazai , No Longer Human
digital illustration. 2020